Lucid

for Wendy Lutz

the most common way i've heard

to tell if you are dreaming

is to look for your hands

and when you see them you'll know

you are no longer in this world 

and then there’s another way

you can realize the friend

the one having an animated conversation with you

they took their life almost 10 years ago

but there they are

right in front of you

bubbling and effusive

and as you realize what your brain has done

your face stalls out

drops just a little bit on the edges

for one small moment

as what’s happening hits you head on

you stop yourself

and turn your face back on to them

because you don’t want them to ask what’s wrong

because it would just make it awkward

because you just want to stay there with them

having a normal conversation

it’s been so incredibly long

since you had a chance to catch up

and find out how they are doing.